Now I know
I hate the extra projects of IB, not the IB at VP itself.
In fact, after LIVE09, I can say with all heart and full sincerity: I love IB with all my heart and soul and miss it dearly.
No, seriously.
IB has spoiled me to life. I could be quiet and still make friends, I could be as mean as possible with other mean people, I could be mean as possible with nice people and not offend them, I wasn't the target of unreasonable treatment and I got to mooch off of other people's smartness.
University has just pushed me to the verge of depression--right now, I am seriously living for little moments where I see people I actually know. LIVE09 has reinforced that.
And it wasn't apparent in IB, but challenging the material upped comprehension way, way above just grasping or regurgitation--and, oh my god, you know it's a sad day when I can say, 'that was a stupid decision, why didn't you ask for my input?' and actually have ideas good enough to back that statement.
Which brings me to the next lesson of LIVE09: I hate AA.
JY will mention the fact that I have trouble working in groups with uncompromising people. It's true; I just can't stand those types of people when trying to work something out and it brings out my stubbornness. I mean, it defeats the purpose. But I usually have no problems with the person themselves.
I hate AA. She's beyond uncompromising; she's controlling, only in a stupid, nepotism way. I mean, for a competition, if she at least did it in an objective way, I probably wouldn't have minded. She didn't. I literally did not add any of my own opinions in this competition even though we were supposed to cooperate as a team--no, I did a shitload of write up for her ideas that I didn't even agree with. I don't know what she's trying to prove. And when the written material comes out crap (um, hello, you do realize that what I'm writing on depends on what you did, right? And if you finish with only ten minutes for me to bullshit for, well, maybe you should have thought about that sooner), it's all my fault even though she forced the work on me and never once asked for a single input from me. And she had to be patronizing about how I made really stupid typos--but what did she have to act on condescending on me? As far as I could say, nothing as I actually have experience in industry commentating (a portfolio and a 7 later generally means you're pretty good at it at this level). And when I make realistic though somewhat pessimistic statements about her plan (I say 'her plan' because the other girl was basically one of her groupies and our GL was just there to help us understand the given materials) and the likeliness of us winning (which is to say nil because she's a noob against graduating students--no competition), she's so insulted and condescending again--as if I should have faith in her brilliant idea or I was a fucking retard who didn't understand her ideas.
(Oh, I understood where she was trying to go with it and how it failed so, so badly. If she read that 5-page document instead of shoving it onto me, she would have known too that it was a shitty idea.)
See, this didn't happen in IB because everyone was either negotiating the title of 'nicest in the world', drowning in an inferiority complex (like yours truly) or simply branded everyone as equal. And as elitist as some got, at least I knew the reason why I was being patronized (and probably accepted it). But when I'm patronized on something that I have more experience and knowledge in, seeing how I've studied this before--aog;baorughaourg;oaubeiwanttobre
In fact, AA > (mandatory presence at an alcoholic lounge + blisters) in terms of what I hated about LIVE09. And I've been saying that Day 1 would have gotten a near-perfect from me even with a rather weak networking session had I not been required to go to the stupid bar/lounge because they didn't even have water for the underage--only pop that I was not going to have at midnight. Oh, and I had blisters from walking to the subway station, which was before the competition even started.
Good things about LIVE: the challenge ideas seemed engaging (I mean, I can't make any opinions seeing how I didn't do any of it), the Marriot Hotel had super comfy beds and awesome food. Yeah. That was sort of it.
The real sad thing is, the hating bit of this post--unlike the other posts where I end up apologizing like mad a few days later as both were a result of a PMS meltdown--I'm not PMSing and I actually hate this girl. And yes, I know JY is going to say I should just stop hating.
P.S. JY, LIVE gets a ton of funding because we have a shitload of sponsors. We have an active public relations agent who goes out to get sponsors and team up with current-sponsors to help get new sponsors, too. And we get funding from both the student union, the school, the management program and the management union/club.
P.P.S. I'll wash the blouse and iron the suit. Did I mention how I made my first epic fail of this competition by forgetting my suit before the conference, then my toothbrush on the day of the conference?
