When there's nothing left in the world

So I have been not-quite-procrastinating and I'm actually studying for my history midterm and I'm more or less done my 2 page 'abstract.'

I even tried to get into APH because it was relevant and I think the better question was why I haven't gotten into it.

But now? I'm just confused. I get that APH is loosely based off history and stuff, but the whole 'Holy Roman Empire' character confuses me. Like no other character. He's hinted to be Germany? But the Austrian empire was the Holy Roman Empire. I mean, that's not even a slight enough twist to make it work.

Am I just being too picky now?

On the bright side, I didn't really care that Italy and Germany technically weren't countries until 1870 and that Prussia is technically Germany.

And even though I'm not particularly attached to APH...

( This was seriously all I was thinking about through world history today. )

I actually had a ton of rants saved up and maybe a 'I adore my technology-hating history prof' (he rebels against the IT team--instant points--and tried to send our entire class to Haiti to help. I love him) post, but I decided this was more interesting. Apparently, there are actually some members of my family that adhere to the 'DON'T DATE UNTIL YOU'RE OUT OF UNI' semi-ironclad rule. But that's not what this is about. Sort of.

So one of my cousins got his first girlfriend. He's older than me by at least 3 years (I'm pretty sure about this, but I wouldn't be surprised if it was 5). Remember when I had a meltdown in August because a hated-cousin was coming over? This is his older brother. I actually dislike him, too, but he's...quiet, so his assholery and obnoxiousness doesn't come out as much. But he's pretty OCD and inflexible. Like 'What steel pole shoved its way up your ass' doesn't not even begin; more like 'You know, that steel pole had trouble going up--you're way too stiff/agitated'

I am also 85% sure after this drama that he has an Oedipus Complex. I guess childhood trauma might have come into it, but bottom line, I am more or less convinced he has the complex.

Back to the GF. They went out for a month or so before he broke it off with this statement:

"You're a horrible girl! You never help my mom when you're over! You're just there--expecting her to do everything. You don't even say anything to my family--just hellos, goodbyes and thank yous. You're not even that pretty--if you can't even be nice, how the hell do you expect a guy to like you? I don't even know why I went out with you! It's obvious that the only way you could get any guy to like you is if you change your entire personality!"

My brother's ex-ex-GF was actually exactly like that and they still went out for 3 years before she broke it off. And my brother was pretty abusive (I will say nothing about myself). That was Assholery in one.

So he talks to my brother about this and he got lashed about how you can't talk to a girl like that (you can, but only if she's the type of girl who is an enthusiastic crotch-kicker). And this girl--a fucking dumbass in my opinion because of this--likes him enough that she's waiting for him to get back together with her. But my cousin is just going to get back with her so that he can break up with her nicely. (And my aunt is just sitting back feeling loved.)

My family is just sitting back laughing. I have no words.

And I swear once this is posted I will be on my way to Fairview. Promise.

I got a mild virus.

Removing it just corrupted/destroyed key components of my OS.

FML.

Just finished reformatting and more or less redownloading major programs.

POed.

This is just sad. The only decently good prof I've got this year is with history. The history class I'm planning on slitting my wrists at. At least the other math it took me 3 weeks to stop going. I've already stopped for this math.

I also think I've said the stupidest thing ever today. I'm just going to say it out that I didn't mean to be offensive or anything and I'm sorry if it ended up like that, but this was just how it came out. The conversation (with a senior from MESA) started with how we spent a portion of Ginnie's New Year party trying to figure out what God's Chinese title was and it reached this point:

( I am stupid. Very. )

Nyanko bank is very, very cute. Am so tempted. But so should not. So broke (stupid books).

So I finished rewatching Cowboy Bebop since coming home from a very fail trip downtown.

(I say fail as in I was stuck between 3 major intersections on Yonge trying to figure out where the hell the Hairy Tarantula was--good thing was that I found 1000 Comix, bad thing was me and Matt was walking up and down Yonge for a long, long time.

And he was allergic to all the cats. And no, I haven't eaten yet.)

Anyways, I'm posting simply to say: WHY IS HOLLYWOOD SIGNING CONTRACTS LEFT AND RIGHT TO PRODUCE LIVE-ACTION MOVIES FOR GAMES AND ANIME RIGHT NOW? NO, SERIOUSLY, I DON'T CARE HOW CLOSELY SUNRISE IS GOING TO WORK WITH YOU, THIS MOVIE IS GOING TO SUCK and they're going to con me into watching it and stealing my money.)

And Happy New Years, everyone.

For my resolutions last year: I actually did all of them except one (guess which one).

Resolution for this year: I'm going to try and act my age (this is going to be epic fail, but hey, I can at least say I'm going to try).

P.S. Dear beloved friends, one of you got me sick at x, y or z party. My throat is killing me and I hate one of you right now--if I could figure out who it was. I hope this isn't swine flu.

Hi, guess who just found out that the SP2 update for Vista made it so that Inspiron can't read the boot file?

I notice most other users got crashes or lagging. Nope, I got the can't turn on computer because it 'can't read boot file' and the 'even though you fix this with the reinstallation CD, we won't read your CD' issue.

Fun. The only thing good about this was that my brother-in-law was in the next room to fix it.

I can't even call it a blue screen of death. It wasn't blue. It was black.

asoihfo;aishoiwhe;ofbwae;o

Hate Vista. Hate Windows.

Now I might actually go and get Windows 7.

That icon looks sort of depressed.

I'm going to be an aunt. A legit one this time--as in, not one due to really messed up family generations. My sister is pregnant and I might as well kiss my freedom goodbye.

I can love kids. I can also hate them. I'm just mostly indifferent to them. They generally hate me or love me.

Between my sister and her husband: if a boy, he will grow up spineless; a girl will either be extremely obnoxious or extremely well-rounded. (Incidentally, this is almost exactly like my prediction for Matt's future children. Ironically discussed early, early this morning.)

I am doomed. Doomed.

That was fast--a little over half a week. Totally saw this happening. Awesome. I really do have a pathetic attention span.

And I think I've hit a new low. I mean this actually beats out the implied (and somewhat incest on a technicality) 1827 fic I was writing with Tsuna being 10 years older--I mean, Mukuro starts out 26. Tsuna just happens to start out 5.

...

Yeah, I've hit a new low.

Still don't know what to get most people for Christmas, but that's okay. For now.

P.S. And Kara no Kyoukai 7? I just watched it, the fucking cocktease. In so many different ways. I think the worst one was the almost-rape scene. We know porn hentai translated into copious amounts of fluids, but man, I didn't think I'd ever see drool trying so hard to pass off as semen before. I mean, honestly.

"You're both so bizarre, you're perfect for each other."

How do you take that? Compliment? Advice? Insulting?